Sunday, February 21, 2010

OK ---Seriously Been too Long

Ok - Seriously it has been too long between blogs. The bad thing is I haven't been journaling lately either...and Sooo much has been going on. Good things and Powerful things. God has been so awesome to me! He is so Worthy of all our Praise! I will share my journey the past couple of months in another blog...but I'm hurting right now.

I am just struggling with something tonight...this might be a lot of ranting...i am also on a ton of meds from a recent cold/sinus infection. So my problem started with facebook today - if you were to take a look at your profile page - would you say it kinda gives an honest snapshot of your week/month depending on your frequency? Mine does. Isn't that kinda the goal? I know sometimes its on the surface level. I don't know....Ok --- so here is the bottom line --- I'm putting this out there -- so Dad if you read this --please answer this--because I am so hurt and baffeled by this. You make a status regarding your father's passing a year ago. I get that. You make a comment on Ginny's Durr 7 year anniversary of Julie's passing - again I pray for them too. We ran in to them so often at the cemetary, the first couple of year's after Marc passed away, they also suffered such a terrible loss. But yet you never have even acknowledged Marc's death. You don't even list Marc as one of your children. My hands are shaking as I type this because it makes me so mad. Was he not your son? I have people that have never met Marc commenting on my notes. I've forgiven him and his family for their whatever. But I just don't get it? That is not typical of how a parent should respond. It is just bugging me tonight. I've prayed about it and given it to God. He'll have to answer to God about it. Marc will be there to. I'm glad that hurt is gone from Marc forever. He will never have to hurt again, but how stupid am I, that I can let facebook hurt me. i"m just frustrated. It does not make since to me. Do you even have a picture of Marc? You should post it. Or would you have to answer to people 1- that you have 3 other children and 2 - that one is in heaven. Both would probably shock your "friends" Brother James.